It was a press, a stretch, and a real strain to find contentment today.
You know, that time during a trial when you start to see a glimmer, a guess, or a hint as to what the solution may be?
That's where I was at today.
I wondered.
And pondered.
[While I wiped a mystery particle off of my baby's face. And then opened the fridge to fetch her bottle.]
Do I breath deep and simply slump down in my chair, go through the motions, fill time or check-out?
It's very tempting. And I'd be lying if I said I never did.
Is there more to do, learn or find, I ask?
These thoughts led to more questions.
Do I try too hard?
Am I 100% present?
Do I compare and compete?
What does putting my hope in God really look like?
As I sit here and reflect.
I think of a classic Dr. Seuss Book: Horton Hatches the Egg. [One of Sadie's favorites!]
Throughout the story Horton tends to an abandoned egg, and is met by challenge after challenge.
Horton the Elephant always replied:
"I meant what I said
and I said what I meant...
an elephant's faithful
one hundred per cect!"
Webster defines it:
Main Entry:
stead·fast Pronunciation: \ˈsted-ˌfast also -fəst\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English stedefast, from Old English stedefæst, from stede + fæst fixed, fast
Date: before 12th century
1 a : firmly fixed in place : immovable b : not subject to change
2 : firm in belief, determination, or adherence : loyal
synonyms see faithful
— stead·fast·ly adverb
— stead·fast·ness \-ˌfas(t)-nəs, -fəs(t)-\ noun
So, I'm thinking.
It's more about my heart motive and my attitude than *even* the task at hand.
