Monday, February 22, 2010


It's 1:42 AM. I can't sleep. So I popped over to one of my favorite well-known-blogs. This woman is an inspirational mama to 4 children (all under age 5) and her 5th is on the way. At the bottom of her post, today, she had a link to a sweet 2-year-old girl who is battling cancer. According to the twitter account, she could pass away within a day or two. With tears in my eyes I said a prayer for that family [I don't know] tonight.

Dear God,

I ask along with the others that you would please heal her. Please bring wisdom to the doctors and nurses working with this little girl. If for some reason she is not healed, please bring people who will comfort this family and carry them through the weeks and months that follow.


I sit here stunned [again] by the frailty of our lives. What a gift every day is. And wow, how blessed am I to have not one, but well over a dozen family members who I love dearly and they love me. We're all healthy. That simple fact is a miracle!

How many hours do I waste a day in discontentment? Too many.

Because I find writing so helpful to organize my thoughts. Here's a list of what I'm thankful for right now, in this moment.

I'm thankful for a husband who is hard working and does not complain. I'm thankful that my husband is honest with me and helps me to make good sound choices. I'm thankful that our love [on a good day] is based on dedication, selflessness and friendship. I'm thankful for family who love me unconditionally. I'm thankful for their support. And meaningful relationship with me. Who invest in me and walk through my life with me. I'm also thankful for friends who are the same way. I'm thankful to look back on three challenging years that John and I have weathered---in tact---only by God's grace. I'm thankful that God's mercy is new each day. A new story yet to be written.

I'm thankful for hope that promises victory after a trial.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

stream of consciousness

In no particular order. I will put my current thoughts in sentences for you to read. The house is quiet. My husband brought both girls to dance class. He's such a great husband and daddy! I should be cleaning and doing laundry. But. Instead I'm looking through old pictures and writing on my blog. I think these things are healthy. To. Just. Sit. And. Be. Still.

This is a Nini classic. Big Sister had a fascination with band aides this summer.

It makes my heart so happy to think that my daughters already have life long friendships. And. Me too.

Thinking of the O'Brien family today. What a special family they are to us.

I am realizing that Sadie is a lot like her daddy. The way she speaks. Her sense of humor. Her originality. I love her new ability to carry on semi-adult like conversations. And. I am constantly blown away by her profound truths.

Just got a call. John's swinging by so I can go run a few errands with him and the girls. I love how children bring the simple things to life. Brings me back to the present moment when I get consumed dreaming of my plans for my future schooling and career. I would be happy as the title wife and mom forever. What an honor. But. I think it's good to dream big so God can show up and do even bigger works in my life. I love how each season brings trials and great joys. Oh. How life can change in just one day. More on this later.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

snow much fun

Tonight, just before dusk we explored the untouched snow that was our backyard! Sadie slid down the snow covered slide, made snow angels, wrote in the snow with a stick and plowed "animal tunnels" with her arms! Lauren ate the snow and then went for a ride in her swing! I loved watching the wonder on their faces!

It's the little things!

Friday, February 5, 2010

stream of consciousness

We've spent the last week at home due to their yellow boogers and loud coughs. I've actually loved just about every minute. Laying low and February seem to go hand in hand. I love the sparkle in their eyes.

They are such good sports. I take many sit-down-and-smile pictures of these two little people. I love these girls and seeing the glimpse of who they are becoming.

I love how small Lauren's mouth gets when she cries. It's cute at 3 p.m. Not so cute at 3 a.m.

Everyday. Every. Day. Sadie picks one toy or animal to role play with. Today was a pig. Pigs. to be more specific. She made me this ring. She cut two strips of paper. And. Each pig out of a workbook page. Glued them together. And. Yes. If you look closely. That is a round pig butt you see.

Later. There was much rejoicing when Sadie's egg hatched a piglet. I love how this child's mind works. She is really witty!