steadfast

It was a press, a stretch, and a real strain to find contentment today.

You know, that time during a trial when you start to see a glimmer, a guess, or a hint as to what the solution may be?

That's where I was at today.

I wondered.

And pondered.

[While I wiped a mystery particle off of my baby's face. And then opened the fridge to fetch her bottle.]

Do I breath deep and simply slump down in my chair, go through the motions, fill time or check-out?

It's very tempting. And I'd be lying if I said I never did.

Is there more to do, learn or find, I ask?

These thoughts led to more questions.

Do I try too hard?

Am I 100% present?

Do I compare and compete?

What does putting my hope in God really look like?

As I sit here and reflect.

I think of a classic Dr. Seuss Book: Horton Hatches the Egg. [One of Sadie's favorites!]



Throughout the story Horton tends to an abandoned egg, and is met by challenge after challenge.

Horton the Elephant always replied:

"I meant what I said

and I said what I meant...

an elephant's faithful

one hundred per cect!"


Webster defines it:

Main Entry: stead·fast
Pronunciation: \ˈsted-ˌfast also -fəst\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English stedefast, from Old English stedefæst, from stede + fæst fixed, fast
Date: before 12th century
1 a : firmly fixed in place : immovable b : not subject to change
2 : firm in belief, determination, or adherence : loyal
synonyms see faithful
— stead·fast·ly adverb
— stead·fast·ness \-ˌfas(t)-nəs, -fəs(t)-\ noun

So, I'm thinking.

It's more about my heart motive and my attitude than *even* the task at hand.